In “Testimonies for the Church,” Vol. VIII, pages 81, 82, we read: “When Seventh-day Adventists move into cities where there is already a large church of believers, they are out of place, and their spirituality becomes weaker and weaker. Their children are exposed to8many temptations. My brother, my sister, unless you are absolutely needed in carrying forward the work in such a place, it would be wise for you to go to some place where the truth has not yet been proclaimed, and there strive to give proof of your ability to work for the Master.”
The Lord has repeatedly admonished us to get out of the cities. I believe that if we would make a more careful study of the Testimonies, we could see many of our mistakes, those made especially in crowding into towns and cities. The Lord has spoken to us upon this point, and told us that a crisis awaits the world. A crisis awaits the people of God. The Lord has told us not to associate together in large companies. But some one may ask, Where shall we go?
I am superintendent of the northwest district of the Kansas Conference. The district comprises about one fourth of the State. In this part of the State there is plenty of land that may be bought at a bargain, and on reasonable terms. Here can be found good water, good soil, and a delightful climate.
The time of trouble is fast hastening on. Soon the people of God will have to leave the towns and cities, and seek safety in more quiet places. Riots and bloodshed will prevail in the cities and towns. Trouble and war have already begun between capital and labor. Strikes and lockouts will continue to grow worse and worse. The poor can not get work, and they will not be permitted to buy or sell. Would it not be wise to begin to break up and move out to seek a place where efficient missionary work may be done? Let four or five families associate together, carry on a Sabbath-school and general missionary work. This would be in harmony with the instructions given by the Lord.
Get out of the cities. Break up the great centers. Scatter out over the unworked fields. “Arise, shine,” says the Lord, “for, behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and gross darkness the people.”
Information will be given any one desiring to know about this country. My permanent address is Clay Center, Kan. May God bless us, and help us to obey his voice.
UNTO the lofty hills, shall I
For help lift up mine eyes;
To Him who made the heaven and earth
Shall my petitions rise.
Thy foot he will not suffer
To be moved from out the way;
For he o'er Israel keepeth watch
By night, as well as day.
The Lord on high thy keeper is,
To guide thy steps aright:
The sun by day shall smite thee not,
Nor the lesser light by night.
From evil he'll preserve thy soul,
Though thou art tempted sore,
And o'er thy every step he'll watch
Both now and evermore.
Removal of the Printing Work to Michigan, and Its Results
By J. O. Corliss
Experiences of Former Days— No. 12
Removal of the Printing Work to Michigan, and Its Results
J. O. CORLISS
As the course of day moves from east to west, so, in the providence of God, the center of influence in the third angel’s message was directed after the same order. The printing work, in its infancy, had no settled home, but was moved from one place to another, ranging from Maine to New York. In the meantime, friends of the truth were being raised up in what was then known as the Western country. Such men as my Father Lyon, Dan. R. Palmer, John P. Kellogg, Cyrenius Smith, and others of the same stamp in Michigan, became burdened to see the printing work removed to their State, believing that through its influence the truth would gain adherents faster in the West than in the East.
Finally negotiations were opened between these brethren and Elder White (who at that time personally owned the Review and Herald printing outfit), to have the plant removed to Battle Creek. Accordingly a small one and one-half story wooden building, eighteen feet by twenty-four, was erected at the corner of Washington and West Main Streets, and to this place the printing-office was removed from Rochester, N. Y., in 1855.
Up to that time the REVIEW AND HERALD had been printed by hand on a small press. Shortly after the removal to Battle Creek, new friends developed, and it was found that not only was the building where the printing was done too small, but that more rapid devices for doing the work required must be inaugurated. The situation was clearly and simply set before the readers of the REVIEW, and they were asked to contribute the means to build a new home for the paper, which was supposed to meet the demands of the times. To quickly inspire confidence in the people, Elder White, about this time, made over all his interest in the printing work to an association, so that the people might know that no private interests were being served by their contributions.
The money came to hand in one-hundred-dollar donations, and a brick building in the form of a Greek cross was erected on the site of the old house, which was moved to the back end of the lot, to be used as a storeroom. This building was begun in 1860 and finished in 1861. It was soon found necessary to add a power-press to the appliances, and again the people were appealed to for one-hundred-dollar donations, which soon came in to insure the purchase of an Adams press. But no press was installed until the means were forthcoming with which to make it the absolute property of the association.
But even with these rapid improvements, how slowly the work was turned out! All the papers and pamphlets were folded and stitched by hand, after which they were trimmed on an improvised affair having a long wooden lever, which was worked by hand. The writer well remembers the weariness he often endured after working this lever continuously for a day.
But this was all changed long before the fire which destroyed the Battle Creek plant. The buildings had been enlarged until it became quite a journey to make the circuit of all the rooms, and most forms of modern machinery were there, with which to expedite work. It was indeed a ponderous affair. So long, in fact, had it stood, and enlarged its borders, that some might well have had it in mind that, like the cherished opinion of the ancient Jews concerning Jerusalem, it must stand until the end of the world.
But God sees things from a different point of view than man. Long years ago word was given this people that before the end the message would return to the East, whence it started, and carry great power with it. The influence of the publishing work in the West had done a noble work, by spreading the printed truth throughout its borders. This, then, was the time for the message to return to the East, and how could it be done more fully than by locating the publishing work in its most important city, the capital of the nation?
JOHN N. QUINN
By John N. Quinn
“Wonderful”
JOHN N. QUINN
Many names are given to the Lord Jesus by Biblical writers, among them that of “Wonderful.” “His name shall be called, Wonderful.” The reason for this was clearly illustrated when Christ was manifested in the flesh. Should the question be asked Mary Magdalene, “What think ye of Jesus of Nazareth?” no doubt the response would be, “O, he is wonderful!” “And why?”—“Because he has done wonderful things for my soul. Once I was led captive by Satan at his will. But when I came to Jesus, sinful, helpless, condemned, he graciously inclined his ear unto me, and as he responded to my cry of distress, Satan’s power over me was broken, sin was dethroned, my heart was made clean, and the Master’s peace and presence came to my soul. O, he is a wonderful Saviour! for he has done wonderful things for my soul.”
Ask Simon the leper about Jesus, and his reply will be similar to that of Mary Magdalene,—“Jesus of Nazareth is wonderful; for he has taken from my heart its burden of sin, and from my body its loathsome disease. O, Jesus is a wonderful Saviour!”
Go into that mission where the gospel of Jesus is preached, look into the faces of men whose hands had been against every man, and every man’s hand against them, but who have been redeemed with the precious blood of Jesus, and ask the question, “What think ye of Jesus?” and from scores of Spirit-filled hearts will come the answer, “O, he is wonderful! for he has done wonderful things for me.”
In a prison service held a few weeks ago by a company of believers from Battle Creek, this same response came from the heart of a poor wanderer who had found his way back to the Father’s house. It was the old story of separation from God, temptations yielded to, drunkenness, and a prison cell. As the precious gospel was sung, floods of memories came to the poor heart. When the Word of God was read, God’s way of salvation made clear, and the call made to surrender to Jesus, the Spirit came preciously near. This man’s hand9went up, and in a moment he was down on his knees in the prison cell. With the tears rolling down his face, he sought forgiveness and peace. And he did not seek in vain; for soon the burden rolled off as he caught a glimpse of Calvary. He arose from his knees rejoicing, and, with his hand clasped in that of a Christian worker, he testified that Jesus is a wonderful Saviour.
My dear reader, what do you say about Jesus, from a personal experience? Has he restored your soul? Are you ravished with his love? Are you gaining precious victories daily? Are you urging men to be reconciled to God? Does the thought that soon, very soon, the heavens will give him up, and he will appear as your King, fill your heart with unspeakable joy? If so, then you can join the great number of the redeemed in testifying that Jesus of Nazareth is wonderful; for he has done wonderful things for your soul. “Even so, come, Lord Jesus.”
A Word of Counsel
By GEO. O. STATES
GEO. O. STATES
Last January while laboring in eastern Colorado, my nerves gave way, and since then I have been obliged to keep very quiet, and have done but little public work. During the several months that have passed, I have been thinking what it is that has brought me into my present condition, and am convinced that it is the result of overwork, and worry over things that I have seen in our work,—things I should have left with the Lord to bring about in his own good time.
I firmly believe, dear brethren and sisters, that we as a people are passing through a crisis in the work of the third angel's message. I have been pained as I have visited our churches during the past few years to find some who have long been in the truth losing their hold upon God, and giving up the message. Brethren, for fifty long years I have believed this truth, and I want to tell you the Lord is coming in this generation. Ever since I could read, I have been a reader of our good REVIEW, and as I have read the reports of our workers in the various parts of the field, my heart has rejoiced at the rapid advancement of the work and the large accessions to our ranks.
Believing, as we do, that there is to be one hundred and forty-four thousand sealed for the coming of Christ, the prosperity of the work should rejoice our hearts, especially those of us who have so long been in the way. There is one question I have seriously considered of late, and that is, How many of those reported have been faithfully instructed in every part of the message? How many of these new converts have been instructed that the Lord is now speaking to this people through the gift of prophecy, that God is now pointing out the duties and dangers of the present time through Sister White, his chosen servant? Dear brethren and sisters, we may as well face the situation as it is, for the fact is that many are coming among us who are not sound on this important question.
Forty or fifty years ago when people accepted this truth, they did it amid great opposition, for the truth was unpopular.
In those early days our people were instructed in the whole message, and were indeed a plain people. Members of our churches were not seen wearing gold rings, and dressing so as not to be distinguished from the world. As our brethren and sisters with their families walked the streets to church, every one knew they were Seventh-day Adventists. Our sisters, with the neat reform dress that God had given this people, were indeed a peculiar people, and a spectacle to the world. But I would not have you think for a moment that our people should again adopt the reform dress; for I believe God has removed that test. This people loved one another in those days. There was no striving for the highest place in the conference or church, for we were all brethren.
Who knows how much we might have been spared from running after the world if we had willingly followed out the instruction given? I firmly believe that the children of Israel were a type of the remnant people, and that God saw fit to give them the ribband of blue to look upon and cause them to remember God's commandments, and to distinguish them from the world. Num. 15 : 38, 39. I believe that before we are translated, we shall be as distinct and peculiar a people as were ancient Israel. Titus 2:11-14 shows what kind of people will be developed under the third angel's message, and how we shall be peculiar people, living in the world, but not being of the world.
I tremble as I see coming among us a worldly spirit, a disposition to follow after the world. I believe that the great reason for our present condition is to be found in the fact that we as ministers have not been faithful in instructing those who accept the message on every point of the truth, especially the spirit of prophecy. As I have read the reports in the REVIEW of meetings held in various conferences, and have noted the number who were set apart to the gospel ministry, I have wondered if these younger workers, as they go out to take the place of those of us who have been so long in the message, will study the spirit of prophecy, and teach the same to the people. I believe it is time we as a people heeded what God is sending us through his servant, and that every laborer in our conferences should believe and teach the whole message.
Rev. 12:17 shows plainly that the remnant church will have the testimony of Jesus Christ, and Rev. 19:10 shows positively that the testimony of Jesus, which is to be in the remnant church, is the spirit of prophecy.
Colorado is now passing through a crisis in the relation of capital and labor, and it is only a matter of time until all parts of the earth will be engulfed in trouble. Those among Seventh-day Adventists who are bound up in the various worldly organizations should seek God as never before, and study the spirit of prophecy; for I do believe that taking the counsel that God is now giving us, is what will save this people.
God has told us in Volume VII, page 84: “We are now to use all our entrusted capabilities in giving the last warning message to the world. In this work we are to preserve our individuality. We are not to unite with secret societies or with trade unions. We are to stand free in God, looking constantly to Christ for instruction. All our movements are to be made with a realization of the importance of the work to be accomplished for God.”
In spite of all such plain statements as these, and those that for years God has been sending us through his servant, relating to the dangers before us, there are elders and leading men in our churches who have been members of lodges. Ministers who were ordained and sent out by this people to preach the whole message have ordained men as shepherds of the flock who were not willing to cut loose from these worldly societies. Is it any wonder, dear brethren and sisters, that some are departing from the truth? I believe that as we come down nearer to the coming of the Lord, the line of demarcation between this people and the world will become more closely drawn, and those who are not willing to cut loose will eventually be cut off from this people.
Some may say, “That is the way in Colorado; it is not so in our conference.” Don't you think it; I don't believe Colorado is any worse than other places. Years ago I became a member of a certain lodge, and I know all about its influence; and while we should deal kindly with those coming among us who are bound to these things, giving them time to withdraw, still we should not compromise by taking them into the church and placing them in responsible positions until they cut loose from these things.
To my mind, there is no question but that the troublous times Colorado is experiencing will eventually reach other parts of the earth; and unless we are heeding the instruction the Lord is sending, we shall lose our connection with God, and, in the end, find ourselves bound in bundles to be burned. For a long time I have felt deeply over these things, and while I have spoken plainly, the Lord knows I have tried to speak kindly.
Law Was Not Made, Only Revealed
LAW was not made, only revealed. It was given at Sinai, but was not made there. From eternity to eternity law has been the same in the mind of God. “Concerning thy testimonies, I have known of old that thou hast founded them forever.” Ps. 119:152.
My Life Is Not My Own
“My life is not my own, but Christ’s,
who gave it;
And he bestows it upon all the race.
I lose it for myself, and thus I save it;
I hold it close, but only to expend it;
Accept it, Lord, for others through
thy grace.”
Hygiene of the Kindergarten
WILLIAM H. BURNHAM, of Clark University, Worcester, Mass., addressing the Kindergarten Department of the National Educational Association on “The Hygiene of the Kindergarten Child,” said:—
“The new science of school hygiene has a message of the utmost importance for the kindergarten. The aim of kindergarten hygiene is twofold: (1) To defend the child from its enemies; (2) to develop those habits which are the alphabet of health.
“The young child is poorly protected from attack by disease-producing micro-organisms. The horny covering of the outer skin, which in case of the adult forms a fortification all around the body, is lacking; the tissues have less power of resistance in the young; the blood of the child is less alkaline than that of the adult; the leucocytes, which are supposed to have the power of destroying micro-organisms, are only half as numerous in the infant as in the adult, being represented by twenty-eight in one hundred at birth to seventy in one hundred in case of the adult.
“Hence it comes to pass that the child is specially susceptible to contagious diseases, and from ninety to ninety-nine per cent of the mortality from the so-called children’s diseases—whooping-cough, measles, and the like—occurs before the tenth year. Measles, for example, is a serious disease before the age of five. Studies of this disease in Munich showed that about twenty-one per cent of the cases that occurred in the first year proved fatal, and about five per cent of those that occurred between the second and the fifth year; whereas only two-fifths per cent were fatal between the ages of six and ten.
“If an epidemic of measles occurs in the kindergarten, four or five children in every one hundred are likely to die; if the epidemic can be postponed until the primary school age, the chances are that only four in one thousand will die. Hence the first general rule is that the kindergarten child should be protected from contagious diseases at all cost, and the greatest care should be taken for cleanliness and general sanitation.
“Again: the child’s nervous system should be guarded against overstimulation and overstrain, and habits of healthful activity as regards eating, drinking, sleeping, and digestion should be developed. The sixth-year molars are appearing at the close of the kindergarten period, and they are very likely to decay in the seventh year. An operation for adenoid growths is best performed at this period. The eyes of the kindergarten child are likely to be hypermetropic, or undeveloped, and care should be taken to avoid overstimulation. The child’s voice has an available compass of only about five tones for chorus exercises, and should be guarded against overstrain.
“The essential aim of the kindergarten, then, is healthful development. At this stage of development one can not sharply separate the duties of the family and those of the school. The aim in both should be primarily a hygienic one. Everything else except obedience, which may rightly be included among the habits of health, can wait. If a child does not gain instruction at this period, he may have another chance; but if the essentials of hygiene are neglected, the loss is often irreparable.”
Simplicity in Diet
By G. H. Heald, M. D.
G. H. HEALD, M. D.
MANY persons of rather feeble health have managed, by giving close attention to their manner of living, to live to a vigorous old age. The rules they have adopted and recommended to others differ very much as to detail; but we have as yet to hear of a successful health system which omitted simplicity in diet and abundant exercise. These are essentials in all health systems.
This is in harmony with the light that has come to us. We are told that of all the errors of diet, overeating is the most harmful. Again and again are the directions given to eat plain food, prepared in a simple manner, and to take more exercise.
One of the curses of civilization—to many—is the cheapness of food, and the ability to get it without hard work, so that now the problem is not how to get sufficient food, but how to prepare it in great variety so that we can enjoy eating a larger quantity.
Men who have made a specialty of food values and the requirements of the body have declared that, as a rule, people eat more than they need, and that this excess is probably a damage to the body. The experience, in freedom from disease and in increased length of life, of men who have been sparing of their food, attests the same fact.
The Testimonies call this overeating “idolatry;” “worshiping at the shrine of perverted appetite.” And of those who do this we read: “The powers which, sanctified and ennobled, might be employed to honor God, are weakened and rendered of little service. An irritable temper, a confused brain, and unstrung nerves are among the results of this disregard of nature’s laws.”
“Nearly all the members of the human family eat more than the system requires.” “If more food, even of a simple quality, is placed in the stomach than the living machinery requires, this surplus becomes a burden, the system makes a desperate effort to dispose of it, and this extra work causes a weak feeling. Some who are continually overeating call this all-gone feeling hunger.”
Our nervous haste, our hurrying, twentieth-century life, with insufficient time for meals, recreation, and sleep, are well calculated to develop a habit of hasty eating, which is furthered by the habit of drinking at meals. In proportion as we bolt our food down, we destroy that sense which should warn us when we have had enough; hence hasty eaters damage themselves, not only by insufficient mastication, but also by excess of food. The variety and quantity of our foods and the hasty eating probably do more than anything else to break down the health.
We may discard the use of meat, tea, and coffee, but if we continue to have a large variety, including some poor combinations, some sloppy food, some rich desserts, and add to these haste in eating, we can hardly hope to reap anything but dyspepsia and all its attendant ills.
“Do not have too great a variety at a meal; three or four dishes are a plenty.”—Review and Herald, 1884, No. 31.
Kitchen “Don’ts”
Don’t clutter up the kitchen when getting a meal, because it will take hours to “clean up” after the meal is over.
Don’t put a greasy spoon on the table. It leaves a stain which requires time to erase. Put it in a saucer.
Don’t crumple up your dish towels. Rinse and hang in the sun.11
Don’t pour boiling water over china packed in a pan. It will crack by the sudden contraction and expansion.
Don’t black a stove while it is hot. It takes more blacking and less polish.
Don’t put damp towels and napkins in the hamper. Dry them first, or they will mildew.
Don’t use knives for scraping the table and pots.
Don’t pour boiling water and soap on grease spots. Moisten the spots first with a cold saturated solution of soda, then scrub them with the grain of the wood, using cold soap-suds.
Don’t put egg dishes into hot water—it makes the egg adhere. Soak the dishes first in cold water.
Don’t put tin pans on the stove to dry. They become heated, the solder loosens, and they soon leak.—Exchange.
Now
By E. H. Shannon
Have you any cheery greeting?
Tell it out to-day;
While you wait, the friend and message
May have gone away.
Let the one who sighs for comfort
Feel a hand grasp true:
It will cheer the way, and surely
Can't impoverish you.
We are all the time regretting
When it is too late,
And some heavy heart has broken
While we hesitate.
Lives are human, though so often
We disguise our pain:
Some are hungering for your comfort,
Give and give again.
— E. H. Shannon.
G. H. H
By G. H. H.
DURING the life of Jesus, there were two factions—the Pharisees and the Sadducees, the one laying great stress on small details of daily life, the other living a life of pleasure, regardless of such petty rules. Each sect despised and hated the other. One thing they had in common; that is, a dislike for Jesus and his teachings.
So to-day it is possible that there may be factions in the matter of food and in the matter of dress, each believing its side right and the other wrong. It is very possible that both may be so intent on these questions that Christ is left out entirely.
It is possible that there may be extremists in health reform and in dress reform; and that others, seeing the fallacy of their position may turn entirely against these reforms.
The devil would be glad to have it so, for as long as people are quarreling over such matters, they are not studying Christ.
G. H. H
The Children
DON’T worry the children.
DON’T indulge them foolishly.
DON’T repel their little confidences.
DON’T show the slightest favoritism.
DON’T lose your temper with the children.
DON’T leave them too much with the servants.
DON’T get impatient at their most unanswerable questions.
DON’T give way when you have decided on any plan for them.
DON’T forget that they are God’s children, lent to you for a season.
DON’T forget to encourage them and praise their little efforts to please you.
DON’T worry about them. Guardian angels still exist, even in the twentieth century.
DON’T disagree about them. Their father and mother should always be in unison in their training.—Woman’s Life.
The Cause and Prevention of Consumption
In a circular recently issued by the State board of health, entitled, “The Cause and Prevention of Consumption,” it is shown that in Illinois the disease is responsible for more deaths than typhoid fever, scarlet fever, diphtheria, all forms of bronchitis, influenza, measles, and smallpox combined. It is further found that those dying from consumption were usually in the prime of life and of ages at which men are most valuable to themselves, their families, and the State. Of the seven thousand persons who died from this disease in Illinois in 1903, half were between the ages of twenty and fifty, while the estimated loss each year to the State because of the disease is about thirty-six million dollars.
Cure for Stammering
“STAMMERING, if not caused by malformation of the organs, can be cured, it is said, in three or four months by reading, with the teeth closed, for at least two or three hours each day. If this is done persistently, success will surely follow. If it fails, reading with the mouth shut is a certain remedy.”
The Horse, the Dog, and the Man
THE horse and the dog had tamed a man, and fastened him to a fence; Said the horse to the dog, “For the life of me, I don’t see a bit of sense in letting him have the thumbs that grow at the sides of his hands, do you?” And the dog looked solemn, and shook his head, and said, “I’m a goat if I do.”
The poor man groaned, and tried to get loose, and sadly he begged them, “Stay!” You will rob me of things for which I have use by cutting my thumbs away! You will spoil my looks, you will cause me pain! Ah, why should you treat me so? As I am God made me, and he knows best! O masters, pray let me go!
The dog laughed out, and the horse replied: “Oh, the cutting won’t hurt you! You see, we’ll have a hot iron to clap right on, as you did in your docking of me! God gave you your thumbs and all, but still the Creator, you know, may fail to do the artistic thing, as he did in furnishing me with a tail!”
So they bound the man, and cut off his thumbs, and were deaf to his pitiful cries.
And they seared the stumps, and they viewed their work through happy and dazzled eyes:
“How trim he appears,” the horse exclaimed, “since his awkward thumbs are gone! For the life of me I can not see why the Lord ever put them on!”
“Still, it seems to me,” the dog replied, “that there’s something else to do: His ears look rather too long for me, and how do they look to you?”
The man cried out: “Oh spare my ears! God fashioned them as you see, And if you apply your knife to them, you’ll surely disfigure me!”
“But you didn’t disfigure me, you know,” the dog decisively said, “When you bound me fast, and trimmed my ears down close to the top of my head!”
So they let him moan, and they let him groan, while they cropped his ears away, And they praised his looks when they let him up, and proud indeed were they!
But that was years and years ago, in an unenlightened age!
Such things are ended now, you know; we have reached a higher stage!
The ears and thumbs God gave to man are his to keep and wear,
And the cruel horse and dog look on, and never appear to care!
— Chicago Times-Herald.
Vitality of the Jewish Race—Its Source
Dr. Ernest Hart, in his Biostatics, shows that the Jews in general live longer than the Christians and the Turks. Their boys, he tells us, far outnumber their girls; they are exempt from epidemic diseases, and they lose fewer children than the Christians and Mussulmans.
Dr. Sallard, in his work on pauperism in London, says that the Jews lose only ten per cent of their children, compared with a loss of seventeen per cent among the Christians. The average life of a Christian in London, he says, is thirty-seven years, while that of a Jew is forty-nine years. The average of life in France, according to the same authority, is thirty-seven years; the average among the Jews is forty-eight years. In an equal number of men, twenty-seven Jews attain the age of seventy years, while only thirteen Christians reach the same age. There are few suicides among the Jews. There is hardly ever a Jewish assassin. Very few Jews abandon themselves to drunkenness.
For this vitality the Jews are undoubtedly indebted to the customs instituted by the so-called Mosaic laws. After these statutes of health were delivered to them by the hand of Moses, the promise was made, “If thou wilt diligently hearken to the voice of the Lord thy God, and wilt do that which is right in his sight, and wilt . . . keep all his statutes, I will put none of these diseases upon thee, which I have brought upon the Egyptians: for I am the Lord that healeth thee.” Although of recent years they have departed greatly from these statutes, they are still reaping the results of their ancestors’ sowing.—Australasian Good Health.
The Cost of Losing Temper
“LOSING temper takes all the sweet, pure feeling out of life. You may get up in the morning with a clean heart, full of song, and start out as happy as a bird, and, the moment you are crossed, and you give way to your temper the clean feeling vanishes, and a load as heavy as lead is rolled upon the heart, and you go through the rest of the day feeling like a culprit.”